Tuesday, February 28, 2012

MC Hammer knows what's up!

It is true, that I have come a long way and that I am in a much better place physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually than I once was. I have figured a lot of crap out with much study, discussions, contemplation and prayer, but I would be a lier to you and myself if I said I was done in my progression. Are you ever a perfect daughter, a perfect friend, a perfect parent? It is a process and you learn as you go. I am in a very good place, but I am still very cautious about what magazines I look at, what internet sites I read, whose face book page I go on and even my own thoughts that drift through my mind during the day. I avoid things that encourage me to feel like I am not good enough. And you know what, that is what most advertisements aim to do. If marketers can make us feel inadequate, then they succeed. This is the golden ticket into our pocketbook.

I try to not live my life for men, for my boss, for even my family and especially not society. I live for God, and I base my decisions around what pleases Him. When I do this, I naturally am good to my family, I am an honest and hardworking employee, and I treat my body with respect. I also am at peace (this is the best part). I am not running around like a chicken with its head cut off trying to please everyone. I was reading my journal the other day and I came across a paragraph where I said. "Today I promised God that if He would help me overcome my trial with food and give me a key to healing, that I would share it with others."

This is me fulfilling that promise. I do have the keys to being free from the chains of disordered eating and I want to share them with you each day through my blog. There are many that I have found and although I will share, they may not necessarily be for everyone because we are all different. However, there is one overarching one that applies to all. Whether you believe in God or not does not change the fact that He believes in you.

I am done with wishing that Sherry was not Sherry. I love Sherry. She is not here to please the fashion or fitness industry (although they are SO fun and enrich my life greatly, they do not determine if I am good enough).

I am not trying to convert anyone to my religion through this blog. I am fulfilling my promise that I made that if He helped me I would share the key. Now I know that He is the key. If you want help, Pray. Ask him for help. Ask him to see you the way that he sees you. Your whole world will change from the inside out. I promise.

o...and if you are wondering about the title of this post... this is a part of his song that I really like...

Time and time and time and time again
I kept on knocking, but these people wouldn't let me in
I tried and tried and tried and tried to make a way
but nothing happened til the day I prayed
That's word, we pray
we got to pray
Just to make it today

I love you Daddy!

1 comment:

  1. I love reading your blog! Definitely puts things in perspective! You're great Sherry